His Love is Sufficient.

It was a gorgeous March night when I set off on my first "real" date. I had just turned 21, and this night seemed like a fairytale. It was one of the best nights of my life, and it ended far too soon. I thought I would be with this guy for years to come, but it came to an end quicker than I had anticipated. He was a good guy who loved Jesus, music, and having fun. We were complete polar opposites, but I think that's why I liked him. He was edgy, I was more clean-cut. He was daring, I was safe. You get the picture. He also taught me a lot about myself, and challenged me to be a better me.

Through high school and even a couple years after high school, I didn't have the greatest track record when it came to guys. I will admit it, because it was true. I had only dated one guy during that time, but I seemed to always have a guy in my life. Someone to compliment me, spoil me, and keep me company - I didn't like being or feeling alone. And any time a guy got too close, I would push them away and start talking to the next guy.

The months that followed after that break-up were extremely difficult. Songs, movies, and places all reminded me of him and the times we had spent together over the course of a year and a half. Although everything inside of me wanted to rebound and start talking to a new guy (because that's what I was so familiar with in the past), I knew I couldn't do it. I spent countless hours praying that God would give me the strength and peace to move on in a healthy, positive way. I was heartbroken, and I didn't like that feeling one bit. I needed Him to completely heal my broken heart, so that I could move forward with my life knowing that He is my healer, provider, and everything that I need.

There I was, 9 months after that break-up, sitting in my room thinking about all of my friends who had just gotten engaged or married. I broke down into tears - I won't lie and say it didn't hurt a little bit each time I saw engagement pictures or wedding pictures. Those 9 months had been the most challenging, encouraging, and growing months I had experienced in my life yet. Because for the first time I had fallen back on Him and His promises & love... instead of a short-lived relationship.

One night, as I was talking to God and not really listening much, (let's be honest, I'm a girl and girls love to talk) I felt like I needed to shut up. This sense of peace came over me and this question echoed through my head "Am I enough?" before this day, I wouldn't have been able to answer that question because I never felt I could be complete without a guy. God really wasn't enough for me. I was terrified I would be single for the rest of my life! (Okay, maybe I was a little dramatic, but girls, you can't tell me that thought hasn't crossed your mind! ;) But, I felt like I could finally answer that question without any hesitation in my mind... "Lord, if it's 5, 10, 15 years from now before you bring me my Mr. Right I will be just fine. And You will always be more than enough. Your plans are far better than mine could ever be."

My worth is found in Him. My purpose is found in Him.


- His grace (& love) is sufficient. -             (2 Corinthians 12:9)